Lyrics

A butterfly flutters its wings
You already know the answer
To sing
To breath
To feel for form and formula
To ask questions
Without conceit of wisdom or concrete belief

Wistful thought and playfulness
To wish
To exist
Persisting in perpetual motion
Release regrets to the sea

To be still in the night
To sit calm and twilit
On barren rock
Ignited by stars colliding
Far from nowhere
Silent light & air

Head for the horizon
The line you never cross
If a tree falls in the wood
Does it seek permission?
It does not.
Does it announce or document its descent?
Or simply give way to the inevitable gravity of everything

So sing your song
You already know the answer
We’re atoms
We’re dust
We’re the tiny spark that lights a whole fire
We’re nothing
This everything there is
We’re never coming back

This is done
Or it goes on forever
Never knowing
Never knowing how to know
And it never mattering that we don’t

So sing your song
In all your pointless glory
We’re nothing
This is everything there is
We’re never coming back.

What do I do
If I can do what I want to?
It’s confusing
If I’m not your fool
When I’m not your shadow
If I’m not trying to be a good girl anymore

What do I want
If I can want anything at all?
If it’s my choosing
And I’m in control
All my thoughts are my own
When I’m not trying to be who you want anymore

What if I let myself go?
What if I let myself off?
What if I stop
Trying to work harder
Trying to be better?
What if my tears never end?
What if I’m weak
If my voice wavers when I try to speak?
What if I’m truthful
If I never lie
What if I gave you a piece of my mind?

What do I do
If I can do what I want to?
It’s confusing
When I’m not your fool
Now I’m not your shadow
When I’m not trying to be a good girl anymore.

Like a cat can catch a tiny bird
How the bones between your fingers feel
Fluttering fragility of all the life that you could steal

If I could twist a sentence round your neck
Squeeze it hard until it hurts to breath
Then and only then I’d know you’re listening to me
Bleeding ears be hearing me

I can whistle on the wind
Tell a tale with any tune I like
Expect to feel the echo of my melody
In your memory every night

I could tear through you with just my tongue
Scorch your skin with things I’ve sung
And I am unafraid of any consequence
What could be done to me has been done

I have fled the forest floor on scared bare feet
I have hitched the whole way home
I’ve unstitched the itch of your tightfistedness
This flimsy feathered foe has flown

Like a cat can catch a tiny bird
How the bones between your fingers feel
Fluttering fragility of all the life that you could steal

I’ve come to rescue you
In the dark of the night
In the dark of the night

Words hung here like a rope
When you’re lost without a hope of light
in the dark of the night without a hope of light

Lonely feeling like a ghost
Like a shadow
No one else knows
When you’re lost in the dark of the night without a hope of light

Follow this melodic line
Footsteps falling right and left in,
left and right into the dark of the night without a hope of light

Leading you back and forth
For the dawning of the day brings a brightening in the dark of
the night without a hope of light

On the tip of it
Take it back
Drip drop
A rivulet
Reverse it
Slack to the stream
Ascend the slope
From the river

All running backwards
In dreams of sleep
Where life unravels
To nothing
All coming apart at the seams

You’re falling, you’re falling, you’re falling
Calling out
“Does nobody care?”
You grasp at the air
And it’s as if it was
Never there at all

When will I know it’s the end
When I sink like a sack
Into to my bed
Falling right back
To the edge
Down among the daylight

Time is slipping around
I can’t keep my grip on it
Always pulling me down and back a bit
Till I’m underneath the sealine

All the things I have done
Have not counted for one
Will I have lost
Or have I won?
Or all come undone
Was I ever there at all?

If you were the person
At exactly the time
Stars all aligning
What you most desire

Would you recognise it
Would you know what that’s like
Would you even want it
Would it even be nice

The succour of struggle
In the triumph & trying
I want no winning
Without a fair fight


Could you learn the lesson
Without a mistake
What are the chances
That you didn’t take
It’s no kind of gamble
If you’ve nothing to lose
There’s nothing to handle
If it’s a path that you’d choose


The succour of struggle
In the triumph & trying
I want no winning
Without a fair fight

If you were the person
At exactly the time
Stars all aligning

When you say I broke your heart
You don’t mean it
Myocardial Infarction, pain in your chest
Feeling light-headed

I don’t know what you’re talking about
But you’ve said so many times
In so many different ways
I think I get it now
I can take it from here

When you say I take your breath away
You don’t mean it
You’re in respiratory distress, shortness of breath
A lack of air

I don’t know what you’re talking about
But you’ve said so many times
In so many different ways
I think I get it now
I can take it from here

May I paraphrase
Your love is like a big red balloon
What exactly is it for?
Nothing more than hot air
Ever growing or dying
Even though it was never there

I don’t know what you’re talking about
But you’ve said so many times
In so many different ways
I think I get it now
I can take it from here

Roses are red, violets are blue
Your love’s redundant
But A I love you

Bushes, briars and thorns
Are in my blood
I like my wind north-westerly, cold and dark
Bushes, briars and thorns
Are in my blood
They learn us pain will always come with love
Bushes, briars and thorns
Are in my blood

Fair as any flower that grows
Sweet as the red, red rose
Those who bloom in the dark and gloom
Have a heart that knows

Bushes, briars and thorns
Are in my blood
Your kindness would be wasted on me love
Bushes, briars and thorns
Are in my blood
For love is but a thousand little cuts
Bushes, briars and thorns
Are in my blood

Take your mythical heroine
Make her robes of stars and sunsets
Give her something to overcome and then your story’s done

Ssanna your eyes are like the darkest pools of water
That all might fall into
Ssanna You’re a warrior beset by all the things you might expect
Anyone to be beset by
Ssanna you’re a heroine who won’t be prepared to find yourself of a rare, beguiling kind

Ssanna you must try your best to search the deepest part of you
That knows the wrong from right
Ssanna There is nothing to fight for
You win with truth and love and nothing more and no one else decides

Ssanna life goes on and on and on and the story’s never done
You just drag on and die
Ssanna I will leave you on a lighter note
Within despair there’s always hope and you only have to try

A Life in monochrome
A house of shards and shadows
Existing all alone
The horror story no one knows
Sneaking out at night
With a lie so white
It caught the light

Within a mirrored room
Where every truth’s consumed
A vacuum of the darkest void
Wherein every living thing’s destroyed

Where the clocks go running back
When suddenly the time goes slack
The line you’re hanging from
A chain of every game you’ve won
By deceit or treachery
The parts of you and me
That go unseen

The tale we tell ourselves
Is hurting no one else
The fears we daren’t speak
Are the ones that never leave
Forever locked and lost the key
Hang in the hallway hauntingly

The name you claim you do not know
Regret you’re hoping will not show
Through layers the years put on
Time’s fastening won’t come undone

The lips you never kissed
The train you said you would not miss
The call you didn’t make
What you denied for pridefulness sake
A wake for what you could’ve shared
A problem halved by being aired
In the sun or the dusky light
All that we might, we might
Be spared the silent pain
Of loving half ourselves
A love in vain

A Life in monochrome
A house of shards and shadows
Existing all alone
The horror story no one knows
Or stepping into sight
With a truth so bright
It caught alight

A bite from the underdog doesn’t kill you instantly
They release a deadly poison that degrades you gradually

Hear it howling at your door
Then you don’t hear it anymore

The bark of the underdog is whimper in the night
They visit you in dreams slowly blocking out the light

Hear it howling at your door
Till you don’t notice anymore

The underdog it eats you inside out
Feeding on your fear, deepening your doubt

Hear it howling at your door
Til’ you don’t notice anymore

The bark of the underdog is a whimper in the night
They visit you in dreams only wake up when it bites

Hear it howling at your door
Then you don’t hear it anymore

I’ll remember you like a fine afternoon
Wherever we go
Out into the blue
That’s where I’ll put you

In my memory, sweet reverie
The walk by a river
Soliloquy
A soft and lilting melody
Playing perpetually

I’ll remember you like a fine afternoon
Short and sweet
Warm with a breeze
On a sunny day, you half in the shade
Afternoon shadow
Sauntering slowly away

A slow burn
Building a fire, piece by piece, that never goes out
Watching it glow in the cold lonely nights of my doubt

You cannot shake me or wake me this isn’t my dream
It’s a whole lifetime of sewing each stitch to the seam
When I leave it will cover a place on the earth
And there’ll be no question of virtue or value or worth

A slow burn
Building a fire, piece by piece, that never goes out
Watching it glow in the cold lonely nights of my doubt

For I am making the mark only I can make
And I will have done it despite all the toil that it takes
Trying to be all the best that I could be
And no other person will withdraw that reward from me

A slow burn
Building a fire, piece by piece, that never goes out
Watching it glow in the cold lonely nights of my doubt

So why don’t you do all the things you thought you’d never do
You’ll be surprised at how naturally they’ll come to you
There isn’t one thing worth having that doesn’t take time
All of the best things test the strength of your heart and your mind
A slow burn
Building a fire, piece by piece, that never goes out.

It's not like you're leaving
But you don't return
Time moves through you
You eventually learn
And youthful exuberance
Gives way to the wise
Nostalgic remembrance of static time
Where nobody knows me
And you're all the same
That shift in the meaning of never again

What you planned to take with you
You'll leave behind
That something and nothing time
That sticks in your mind
Winning or losing
It's one and the same
This life you're living never again

It's not like you're leaving
But you don't return
Time moves through you
You eventually learn
And youthful exuberance
Gives way to the wise
Nostalgic remembrance of static time
Where nobody knows me
And you're all the same
That shift in the meaning of never again

What you planned to take with you
You'll leave behind
That something and nothing time
That sticks in your mind
Winning or losing
It's one and the same
This life you're living never again

Stranger I think I know you
Stranger I think I know you

I see a darkness
A light shining through
Something I recognise
Something new

Stranger I think I know you
Stranger I think I know you

Nobody knows what I want
None of them know who I am
I want the truth so strong
That it comes right up and bites you on the shoulder with its friendly teeth

I know omission’s a lie
It’s in every deceit and disguise
And I want the truth so strong
That comes right up and bites me on the shoulder with its friendly teeth

I don’t care how ugly you say you are
It’s me that gets to decide
Truth and beauty in the beholder’s eyes
And there’s nothing more ugly than lies upon lies upon lies

I’ve been everyone’s fool
And lies are the harshest cruelty
Now I want a truth so strong
That comes right up and bites me on the shoulder with its friendly teeth

I want a sharp breeze
Of the kind that takes your breath
An ounce of trepidation in my step
With a slight discomfort in my zone
To leap, carefully, into the unknown

Nobody knows what I want
None of them know who I am
I want the truth so strong
That comes right up and bites me on the shoulder with its friendly teeth

When the world has lost its edges
You’ll find me where two ends meet
Where the endings the beginning again
And everything’s complete

I’ve been drawing a circle
Back to myself
So slowly it looked like a line
That I went way off
Faraway from the place
That I started

Don’t you wonder
How it is what it was


I’ve been drawing a circle
Around myself
To keep from the dangerous
Dark eclipsing
Circling round the doubt
A ring
To never let in or give out

Don’t you wonder
How it is what it was

I’ve been drawing a circle
Back to myself

The water hugs the harbour
And it’s swelling like the flesh of peach
Breathing like the belly of a baby softly lost in sleep
I could go under
Slip down in the deep
At the bottom of deepest sea
Would I finally find release

Your love won’t float
For fear of drowning
My heart’s not the boat


The birds are singing brightly in the tall trees of Skeoch wood
And scarcely I believed that peace of mind in life could be as good
I could remember, it all, the walls beyond
If it all falls, from the forest would I even know it’s gone

Your love won’t fly
For fear of falling
Now I won’t share the sky

Another summer, ‘nother winter, ‘nother fall
All the leaves on trees, for all the woods, I can see it all
And all the while I wonder what it won’t or what it will
Wherever you are it’s all there ever still

Your love won’t fly for fear of falling
Now I don’t share the sky

Do you know now
Not that I need you to
Do you know now

That no part of me
Is a part of you
Do you know now

There’s no blood and no bone
To connect me to you
No familiar, no friend
Every contact cut or ended

Do you know now
Not that I need you to

You’re a metaphor for fear
In my troubled sleep
An Ideé fixe
Symbolic of anxiety
A warning

Do you know now
Not that I need you to
Do you know now

That no part of you
Is a part of me
Do you know now

Almost a mirror
But not quite
Reflect in river
Clear and concise
Poised and precise
Glass and ice

Always be nice
Just a slice, a sliver
Fine on the eye
I can reliably refine
What you like

Almost a mirror
Not quite
Sleak and it’s silver
Pellucidite
Crystaline shine
So bright

It’s lie like
All an illusionary trick of the light
I can reliably refine
Every sight

Bright red
The blood that I have bled for you
Trying to see it through
Trying to do

Am I nothing more
What I can bear for
If damaged fruit
Is all I can give to you
That‘ll have to do

I can’t bear
Bring myself to blame myself again
It isn’t fair
We’re all taught to tear ourselves apart

It broke my heart
‘Til I, willing to die
Could see no light
In my fruitless life

Bright red
The blood that I have bled for you
Trying to see it through
Trying to do

There’s a room where everyone hangs on my every word
But in our haunted house my daddy rarely heard a word I said
My lover loves me most of all
He can write a beautiful love song but he can barely sing at all

My mother praised me for being truthful all my days
But I needed things that I did not say
I did not ask, did not complain
I let my wants washed away
My lover loves me most of all
He can write a beautiful love song but he can barely sing it all

I let the heartless make a host of me
And they plundered me for melody
Left me not a note to sing
They would have taken everything
But my lover loves me most of all
He can write a beautiful love song but he can barely sing at all

Maybe I won’t be no one’s mother in the end
I took the pills, the potions and the vitamins
But I could not keep my darlings in
My lover loves me most of all
He can write a beautiful love song but he can barely sing at all

I will not ruin what I’ve got
All things I am and I’m not
I will not live my life in pain
If I can’t see the way on any given day
I’ll take a breath and look again
For my lover loves me most of all, and he’ll write a beautiful love song though he can barely sing at all

Bring me a double-edged sword
And I’ll show you an iron will
I need nothing but in my armoury
For I am standing still


A steely gaze though I am made of lead
I’ve nothing but the thoughts that I’ve gathered in my head
And I have been concerned with little else for hours & hours
My ability to stay alive’s my only power


Bring me a double-edged sword
And I’ll show you an iron will
I need nothing but in my armoury
For I am standing still


I mean resilience when I speak of strength
& we shall see in 5 or 10 or maybe 15 years hence
I’m not the like to be deterred by an idle threat
My memory’s an elephant you never will forget

Bring me a double-edged sword
And I’ll show you an iron will
I need nothing but in my armoury
For I am standing still

You’re a loose cannon baby and I’m a firecracker
What a beautiful mess we make
Leaving dust in our wake
Laying waste to it all
No good, for goodness’ sake

Down in the earth divining its worth
Weighed in blood and in bone
In a fruitless pursuit
Of some notion of truth
Between a rock and a stone

Like moths to a flame
Drowning in shame
We’re losing every game
Cos we’d rather find out
Excluding all doubt
And go brightly burning out


Burn in the hearth, at the heart of it all
In bright lights and fire we fall
Bathed in our light
As we spoil for a fight
And triumph overall


You’re a loose cannon baby and I’m a firecracker
What a beautiful mess we make
Leaving dust in our wake
Laying waste to it all
No good, for goodness’ sake

He plays a song
On a lute he made
Its pure tone
Made of dead woman’s bones

The tune he plays
Are the notes he stole
And those words
Such lovely words
Such poetry
A dead woman’s poems

The words she wrote
His literal hand on her metaphorical throat

He takes his wares
To the market square
Where the men confer
They then aver
“what intricate things he strings
from dead woman’s limbs”
And so it goes

For what’s a song
Without a strong man
Stringing along

The calm
After the storm
You can’t kill me
After all

When all’s said and done
Under the sun
You can’t kill me
I won

So getting stronger
Has begun
You can’t kill me
It’s done

Pieces shattered like stardust that reformed
Making the darkest of midnights into dawn
Growing the sweetest of roses from the thorns
Going the closest to breaking, being reborn

The calm
After the storm
You can’t kill me
After all

Like a sentence
Without a kind word
Leaves me speechless

Untie, untangle and deny
That it ever was at all
Refuse to reply
To words never heard

Fool me once
Shame on me, shame on me, shame me twice
All lines, all ended, then amended, extended, reprised
Every time

Parenthesis, I (think I) am done with you

Put cessation in its place and face down the demon
Now darkness is only an absence of light in its space

To keep staring into the void
Re-wounding indefinitely is a choice
I choose not to make
A path it didn’t take
Undestroyed

Parenthesis, I (think I) am done with you

There are windows to open
A curtain to draw
To let hope out the building
Let the winds roar through the halls
If it doesn’t belong, ‘til it’s gone

Parenthesis, I (think I) am done with you

On a page, in a book, in a drawer
In a house I don’t live anymore
Is a thought
The tiniest pause
One breath
A singular cause for hope
That you ever loved me at all

Sing us one of your sad songs
The one about love
Make it make us give in and never give up
Sing a bittersweet sadness
So we all slow down
Make us swim for the shore
Make us drown
Make it grounded, magic somehow

Sing us one of your sad songs
The one about time
Make us die on the inside
And feel so alive
Tell us the world is illusion
But you know the truth
Say it’s beautiful, show us proof

Make us something from nothing
The light of a fire
Made of merely a mirage
A trick to inspire
Sing a sound that we’re drawn to
When we’re feeling low
Spin your alchemy, give us hope

Sing us one of your sad songs
The one about truth
Speak for all of us and only for you

Live on the turn of the tide
Ever to burrow but never to hide
Always the tears in the edge of my eyes
Delivering truth of the live and let lie

Rivers that never run dry
Fed from this bleeding heart of mine
Suffer the scratching thorn in my side
Ever the itching of precious pride

Lament of the lonely
The lost all along
Only me only can carry them on
This heart is so heavy I wish I was strong
Only me only the only one

The left of the living
In suffering song
The weft of the weaving, perceiving it strong
The burning and stinging in heat from the sun
Forever in turning for never undone

The tide in the morning is nearly gone
Its lilting and leaving till back it comes
The birds are all winging the dawn is done
It’s only me singing the only one

If it were flower
It would not be a rose
And if it were a bird
Would be fast on wings away from home
And if it were a tree
Down in the deep dark its roots would be
But if it were a flower
It would not be a rose

If it were a room
Would be one with corners lost in gloom
And if it were a song
Would be sung with a slow and plaintive tune
And if it were a face
Would contain a sadness you couldn’t place
But if it were a flower
It would not be a rose

If it were the sea
Would rise-up, swell and swallow me
And if it were my heart
Would fill up full and fall apart
And if it were the ground
Would pull me in without a sound
But if it were a flower
It would not be a rose

Open my mouth to speak
Nothing comes out

I don’t want you
To think that I don’t want you

We’re all afraid of the dark
We all believe ours is the weakest heart

I don’t want you
To think that I don’t want you

But nothing I could say
Would save the fading stars so far away

I want to think that love conquers all
I want to say that hope helps at all

I don’t want you
To think that I don’t want you

There’s a breaking in the beating of my heart
Can’t bear to watch the world fall apart

I don’t want you
To think that I don’t want you

Whatever I could say
Would it be the light from stars that already died away

For a long time now I’ve wanted to say
Something to lighten your load, brighten your day
But there aren’t the words for the colours I see
The patterns the change won’t stay the same
And somehow my view is always imbued with melancholia hues

At dusk and at dawn
Moments to wonder but somehow to mourn
These moments they pass to never return
Melt into nostalgia as my memory yearns

For each pound of joy there’s an ounce of regret
If the sun rises you know it will set

So I’m taking it down to tuck it away
Saving some sunshine for my rainy day
And I’m trying to find that silverline
That runs through the clouds that collect in my skies

Our love is a pendulum swing
We are two bells with alternate rings
In the sequence of high and low
You’ll be the other side of wherever I go

Forever repeating
The only tune you know
The other side of whatever I know

Never resolving
Hanging in the air
A pendulum swinging
My here, your there

Our love is like bells ring, bells ring
Sweet and sad
The pull of the longing, longing, longing
Is all we have

Like morning dew frozen where it fell
If you longed for love little you could tell

Is it just the birds and the blues of the wintertime
Is it just the birds and the blues?

It draws you down back under its spell
And it churns you and turns the pearl out the shell

Is it just the birds and the blues of the wintertime
Is it just the birds and the blues?

You try to take some sunlight for this side
But you cannot break the turning of the tide

Is it just the birds and the blues of the wintertime
Is it just the birds and the blues?

Is it just the birds and the blues

Footsteps on the cold ground
Lead straight to your door
And the birds in my tangled tree
Sing of love but call to war

Beautiful birds are not meant to be caged
You should have been true to your wings
You should have flown away

So left my tangled tree
That once bore strong branches and leaves of green
But how cruel and inevitable the passing of time can be

This tangled tree
Watched every inch of its majesty fade
With fall of every leaf

It always seemed to call me
The crooked stoop, the bend and swoop
Of its complicated beauty

They cut it up to burn it down

Bright lights rise out and over the fire

Live on the turn of the tide
Ever to burrow but never to hide
Always the tears in the edge of my eyes
Delivering truth of the live and let lie

Rivers that never run dry
Fed from this bleeding heart of mine
Suffer the scratching thorn in my side
Ever the itching of precious pride

Lament of the lonely
The lost all along
Only me only can carry them on
This heart is so heavy I wish I was strong
Only me only the only one

The left of the living
In suffering song
The weft of the weaving, perceiving it strong
The burning and stinging in heat from the sun
Forever in turning for never undone

The tide in the morning is nearly gone
Its lilting and leaving till back it comes
The birds are all winging the dawn is done
It’s only me singing the only one

If it were flower
It would not be a rose
And if it were a bird
Would be fast on wings away from home
And if it were a tree
Down in the deep dark its roots would be
But if it were a flower
It would not be a rose

If it were a room
Would be one with corners lost in gloom
And if it were a song
Would be sung with a slow and plaintive tune
And if it were a face
Would contain a sadness you couldn’t place
But if it were a flower
It would not be a rose

If it were the sea
Would rise-up, swell and swallow me
And if it were my heart
Would fill up full and fall apart
And if it were the ground
Would pull me in without a sound
But if it were a flower
It would not be a rose

Open my mouth to speak
Nothing comes out

I don’t want you
To think that I don’t want you

We’re all afraid of the dark
We all believe ours is the weakest heart

I don’t want you
To think that I don’t want you

But nothing I could say
Would save the fading stars so far away

I want to think that love conquers all
I want to say that hope helps at all

I don’t want you
To think that I don’t want you

There’s a breaking in the beating of my heart
Can’t bear to watch the world fall apart

I don’t want you
To think that I don’t want you

Whatever I could say
Would it be the light from stars that already died away

For a long time now I’ve wanted to say
Something to lighten your load, brighten your day
But there aren’t the words for the colours I see
The patterns the change won’t stay the same
And somehow my view is always imbued with melancholia hues

At dusk and at dawn
Moments to wonder but somehow to mourn
These moments they pass to never return
Melt into nostalgia as my memory yearns

For each pound of joy there’s an ounce of regret
If the sun rises you know it will set

So I’m taking it down to tuck it away
Saving some sunshine for my rainy day
And I’m trying to find that silverline
That runs through the clouds that collect in my skies

Our love is a pendulum swing
We are two bells with alternate rings
In the sequence of high and low
You’ll be the other side of wherever I go

Forever repeating
The only tune you know
The other side of whatever I know

Never resolving
Hanging in the air
A pendulum swinging
My here, your there

Our love is like bells ring, bells ring
Sweet and sad
The pull of the longing, longing, longing
Is all we have

It was something familiar
Like the sound of the sea
I forgot I remembered
Like some lost part of me

It was only a flicker
It was barely a trace
Only there for a second and then gone from your face

Like the wayward tide still tethered to the shore
The thought just pulled me back to before

I wouldn’t say I was lonely
But I know we’re alone
And my mind clings to memory like a heart to home

Reflections at sundown can make me so sad
For there’s no way of keeping the day we’ve just had

Like morning dew frozen where it fell
If you longed for love little you could tell

Is it just the birds and the blues of the wintertime
Is it just the birds and the blues?

It draws you down back under its spell
And it churns you and turns the pearl out from the shell

Is it just the birds and the blues of the wintertime
Is it just the birds and the blues?

You try to take some sunlight for this side
But you cannot break the turning of the tide

Is it just the birds and the blues of the wintertime
Is it just the birds and the blues?

Is it just the birds and the blues

I’ve a heartache, it’s something that I make
And no matter what I take it won’t go away
For it’s like I need it and somehow believe in it
And it keeps me going, along the wrong way
Yeah it’s my hard homemade heartache that keep me awake

And I should release you but I still hold on to
So sure I can feel you slipping away
And then all my racing will turn into chasing
With all fires a blazing till it’s all burned away
Yeah it’s my hard homemade heartache that keeps you away

But I’ll learn my lesson no amount of aggression
No pushing and pressing will get you to stay
I just hope that you want to and feel you belong to
Someone who wants you everyday
And hope that my hard homemade heartache
Won’t scare you away
And hope that my hard homemade heartache
Won’t scare you away

It’s lucky I learned young
You’ve got to turn the other cheek
I knew before I had begun
I’d have to earn the right to speak

It’s not Chicago’s fault that no one came to see me play
It’s not the rain that ruined the parade
The cookie’s gonna crumble and money’s gonna burn
So make your peace with failure, a lesson that you learn
You’re gonna look foolish as the sun is in the sky
Some if it is painful and you’re gonna have to try
But you wouldn’t trade it for all that glitters gold
You only went and made it despite what you were told

It’s not Chicago’s fault that no one came to see my show
You sing the best you can and then you let it go
That cookie’s gonna crumble and money’s gonna burn
You make your peace with failure, an early lesson that you learn
You’re gonna look foolish as the sun is in the sky
Some if it is painful and you’re gonna have to try
But you wouldn’t trade it for all they’d offer you
You sing and play and make things for that is all that you can do

That song plays and my heart actually aches
I need a guarantee
Though I detailed all the things I didn’t need
And turns out I’m weaker than I would care to seem

Come to me this is enough
Before I turn my head and it disappears to dust
What have you done to me, what will this do?
Now I cannot think of anything but you

That song plays and my heart actually aches
I need a guarantee
And it turns out there’s weaker man in me
And his more than I would have believed

Come to me this is enough
Though I cannot give you anything but love
What have you done to me what can I do?
To show you I’m the only one for you?

Come to me this is enough
Though I cannot give you anything but love
What have you done to me how can I be?
The only man that you will need?

There’s a ringing in my ears
There’s a taste tart on my tongue
There’s a weight to the tears
As my heart takes the air from my lungs
As the light in my eyes
Shines on all I thought I’d disguised
I’m so scared I’m not brave
What in me am I trying to save?

And you say you want to be bathed in light

There’s a doubt in my mind
I’m the one that will get left behind
That I’ll write every day, but no one cares to hear what I say
That I’ll stand and I’ll sing but no one will be moved to join in
That I’ve lost all I’ve got, all it was that it turns out I’m not

And you say you want to be bathed in light
Yeah, you say you want to be bathed in light

It’s too late to go back now my destiny’s tied to this track
I’ve no love nor nought else an end of this is no start of myself
I’m too old, I can’t change, I’ve no life made to be rearranged
I don’t know what I’d do, just die dreaming of singing to you

And you say you want to be bathed in light
Yeah, you say you want to be bathed in light

I’d go back if I could
Take you down and bury you in the woods
Steal your past and erase it if I could
Don’t think I wouldn’t, I would

For how dare love anyone but me
How could you love anyone but me

Like a captive I would keep you chained
Keep every moment in every single day
And every person who’s ever meant a thing to you
I’d erase them that’s what I would I do

For how dare love anyone but me
How could you love anyone but me

And this madness what am I thinking of?
So destructive for my love
I’m a coward and I’m trying not to scream
“oh you traitor what have you done to me?”

For how dare love anyone but me
How could you love anyone but me

And I’ve seen you laughing in the light
I see it over and over every night
And it’s torture to think of you with them instead
And it hurts no less for being only in my head

For how dare love anyone but me
How could you love anyone but me

I never learned French
Like I said I would
Never returned your call
That book you gave me is still on the shelf
I forgot about others and remembered myself

I worried my parents when I didn’t come home
To scared and to lazy to pick up the phone
And I’ve sung the tune and forgotten the words
And I let love languish and others be hurt

I've been mining for gold
But only finding tin, glinting in the sun light
Now it is leaving dirt in my hands like only the truth can
Maybe I am done, done, done

So please don’t look at me, no more
Your eyes burn like the sun
Oh now I am done, done, done
To you I’m a strange girl
An adorable fool
Who's full to the brim of nothing you need

Is my sincerity such a surprise
Cause you just don’t find it nowhere, no more?
Be honest with yourself
You can't forget me ‘cause I’m like nobody else
But you don’t know what to make of me
I am just too much
But somehow not enough

So please don’t stare at me, no more
Your eyes burn like the sun
And oh how I’m done, done, done
Yes I am a strange girl
An adorable fool
And full to the brim of nothing you need

I think it was a Tuesday
It was dark
There was something that I needed
But I couldn’t ask

Cos I don’t know how to love me
The way that I should
But lately I’ve been learning
I don’t have to be good

I don’t have to earn
I can be
I’m not your workhorse
Or your busy bee
And I won’t be your cash cow
Now I will be the one
If I’m making money
Then I want some

I think it was the lying
And how it felt
I tired of the standards
Applied to nobody else

I am going to love me
The way that you should
Lately I’ve been learning
That I could

I don't have to earn it
I can be
I don't have to give you things
You don't give me
I don't have to carry everyone
If I'm going to give love
Then I want some

I think it was a Tuesday
It was dark
If there's something that I need now
I will ask

Words were never the answer
Resplendently recondite they are
It’s just a way to tolerate the universal pain of simply living

A smouldering sun over a swelling sea
Upon my tongue in adequate poetry
Now somehow belongs to me

Thought I could write it off, stop the sky falling
What could I control?
But I know now how little words hold

Imaginary meaninglessly lovely
Summarily succinctly all I know
Which words to let go

24 of the hours in days
Fit their nights like a glove
Your unrequited meets requited love
All of your losses leave you
Full to the brim
That’s where the light comes in

The still of the night
Lies calm in the palm of your hand
A truth that you took too hard
You will understand
Love that you gave in vain
Comes back round again
That’s where the light remains

And you ask me for a catchy chorus
Knowing I’m more a sweet refrain
Who am I to give you something to live for?
But here’s a thought for if you ever lose your way

Every grain on the shore
Is worn by thousands of waves
Each drop in an ocean falls
And it rises again
Sun in a shard of glass
Will refract through the pane
That’s all the light contains

And you ask me for a catchy chorus
Knowing I’m more a sweet refrain
Who am I to give you something to live for?
But here’s a thought for if you ever lose your way

24 of the hours in days
Fit their nights like a glove
Your unrequited meets requited love
All of your losses leave you
Full to the brim
That’s where the light comes in

This reminds me
Of driving at night
With you
When the homes and street lights
Looked like stars in the night sky
And you were a dark knight
A partner in crime
Your crime
All you left behind
In running for your life
These were the first lights
In a long line

Your eyes
Wide like mine
And your heart
Worn tight
Cold and bright
For all that it might
Just set alight

Lighting a fire
Setting it right
Burning the bonds and binds
Claiming the light
Having the right
Live however you like
Go driving at night

You know me better than that
I’m the one that called
I wouldn’t let it fall
And I’ve seen it all
I wouldn’t let it fail, babe
That isn’t me at all

You know me better than that
I’m the one that tries
Who will apologise
And see through all the lies
That they sow
I’m the one who knows

I didn’t save you
I just let you save yourself
And you didn’t save me
You Just love me more than anybody else

You know better than that
I’m the one that will
Who’d never mean you ill
And I’ll be loving still
All I can
That is who I am

I think it was a Tuesday
It was dark
There was something that I needed
But I couldn’t ask

Cos I don’t know how to love me
The way that I should
But lately I’ve been learning
I don’t have to be good

I don’t have to earn
I can be
I’m not your work horse
Or your busy bee
And I won’t be your cash cow
Now I will be the one
If I’m making money
Then I want some

I think it was the lying
And how it felt
I tired of the standards
Applied to nobody else

I am going to love me
The way that You should
Lately I’ve been learning
That I could

I don’t have to earn it
I can be
I don’t have to give you things
You don’t give me
I don’t have to carry everyone
If I’m going to give love
Then I want some

I think it was a Tuesday
It was dark
If there’s something that I need now
I will ask

If this were the last time
I leave you with a song
Then this is the one
I’d want you to hum

Forget all the melancholy things I said
Forget the way I pencil pain
All sad and beautifully sung
If that’s all done

I promised you light
I promised you love
And I’m gonna keep that promise
Just this once

It will be fine
It will all be alright
And wherever you are
I love you
Goodnight

Banish me to the island of I’m fucking awful
Then come to visit as often as you can
Cos you never mean it
You never mean it
You will want whatever I have

Empty threats and liquid promises
Soft regard and hard hearts
As my appetite diminishes
You will pull me apart

I was preoccupied
With keeping my promises
My conceit
That I’m a man of my word
But that’s so absurd
When you were destroying it
Making me break it
Drag my name through the dirt

It’s High time
I paid for my crimes
So this vow of silence
For the rest of my life
You won’t hear from me
No thought that occurs to me
I trade you my vacancy
For a happier life

I give you nothing
Like the nothing you gave me
That’s how you win
That’s how you won

No not to hurt you
But to stop you hurting me
That’s how it ends
That’s how it ends
Slate and sleek
Grey
Wait and see
Weigh
Down with stone
Weigh down with stone
Weighed down with stone
Weighed down with stone

I think it was a Tuesday
It was dark
There was something that I needed
But I couldn’t ask

I don’t know how to love me
The way that I should
But lately I’ve been learning
I don’t have to be good

I don’t have to earn
I can be
I am not your work horse
Or your busy bee
And I won’t be your cash cow
Now I will be the one
If I’m making money
Then I want some

I think it was the lying
And how it felt
I Tired of the standards
Applied to nobody else

I am going to love me
The way that You should
Lately I’ve been learning
That I could

I don’t have to earn it
I can be
I don’t have to give you things
You don’t give me
I don’t have to carry
Everyone
If I’m going to give love
Then I want some

I think it was a Tuesday
It was dark
If there’s something that I need now
I will ask

When the worst thing
In the world is happening
When all the things are done

When all the worst arguments
Begun and ended
And you live to tell it in the end

When all the weapons are spent
When all your doubts are run out

You sleep so soundly in your bed
When all the words of someone else
Aren’t in your head.

Trying to strike a chord
That you haven’t heard before

You’ll recognise it
You recognise it all
Searching for a tune
That I haven’t sung before
One that’s lesser used and lesser sad
But somehow maybe more

You’ll recognise it
You recognise it all
Trying to describe the indescribable
As I never have before
And what it’s like to know, you know something
So much more
Than you ever have before

Take a picture of nothing at all
Sing something low and incomprehensible
Blur the edges of it all
Your blood is like water
Your will is paper thin
I’m tired of too much nothingness
Sucking up everything
White noise for the ears
Valium to the brain
Same voice mumbling
Over and over
Over and over again

I’m sick and tired of being told it doesn’t stick
When you won’t sing it,
When you won’t sing like this

Read yourself a story that you wrote
Tell yourself whatever lies you like
I can never lie
The truth is sharp it hurts my eyes
Walk around a hole that’s in the floor
Pretend like you don’t see it anymore
I can never lie
The truth so bright it hurts my eyes

There’s a sound
Drowning out all the other sounds
How do you live with that din in your ears

If you can only learn to let it lie
Then all the falling stays up in the sky
I never lie
The truth runs all through my inside
Just pretend you didn’t hear
Nothing good will ever disappear
I can never lie, dear
The truth is like a needle in my ear

There’s a sound
Drowning out all the other sounds
How do you live with that din in your ears

These, these are the chains we forge in life
And I’ve finally found a promise I can keep
But is it too late
Is it all laid to waste
Does it all run too deep?
When every part of you
Is promised to some past lover somewhere
There’s nothing I can do
To free the part of you that’s still living there
But If I’m to leave
Then I’d need to believe that you didn’t care
That in time you wouldn’t be mine

These, these are the chains we forge in life
And I’ve finally found a promise I can keep
But is it too late
Is it all laid to waste
Does it all run too deep?

If it’s not a love I can use
What is it for, what is it for?
If it’s not a dream that I’m in
It’s really no good to me
It’s just money I can’t spend
A car I can’t drive
A house I can’t live in
Is no kind of life
If it’s not a love I can use
What is it for, what is it for?
If it’s not me that you see
You’re really no good to me

I’ve not heard a word of contrition
You don’t learn how to firm your position
All you stand for
Makes me want to sit out
I’ve not heard a word of compassion
You think love is a power to be rationed
All you stand for
Makes me want to sit out
I’ve not heard a word of contrition
You don’t learn how to earn your position
All you stand for
Makes me want to sit out

No I don’t have a shell
And why can’t you tell
Why don’t you care
Why isn’t it a thing
To sting my heart so badly
Why wouldn’t you try
To apologise
Why is it nothing
To leave me crying
When did I lose humanity to you
You think there’s nothing that you can do
But I don’t have a shell
And why can’t you tell
Why don’t you care
Why isn’t it a thing
To sting to my heart so badly?

Oh how I earned my place in your cellar
With all of my porcelain power
Behind the cellar door
On the stone of the cellar floor
I know I’m a precious one
Rare and raring to run

You’re the collector
You’ll keep me forever
A small unknowable thing
With you as preceptor
Cos you’re the collector
Who owns unownable things
By pinning their wings

I conceived an idea
A notion of a family
Pulsing to a beating heart
All of my imaginary
I’m not being maudlin dear
It’s hard a thing to resign
Know all you wanted all at once
And lose it at the same time
The idea doesn’t go
A circle that we’re still inside
You and me and all we know
And our tiny bit of life

I’ll carry it forever long
This tear upon our hearts
If we stitch our scars together, love
So we never come apart
An idea doesn’t go
The circle that we’re still inside
You and me and all we know
Our tiny bit of life

Sift it through your memory
Check the time, check the date
Mark the place
Then be on your way
You cannot hold in certainty
Not the time, not the place
Just a trace
Of all that falls away
Life it has no constancy
Not a line, not a trace
That will not ever change
Love is like setting sun
Like a letter on a page
One will burn
The other slowly fades
So I love you like a setting sun
Like I’ll know no other day
All temporary truth
Sung upon a stage

You’re nothing but a deep cut in my back catalogue
You’re nothing but wasted time
A rejected line
From a song I never sing anymore
I wish you whatever you want
But don’t come darkening my door
Yeah I’m all scorched earth and fire
There’s nothing else left
Since you liars set in
Yeah, yeah, yeah, lemons
Suck ‘em up and see
I’m half as bitter as you’d be
If you were me

I’ve never been one for running my tongue
For declaring all my love from the rooftops
I’ve always been shy cos people will pry into your life
I’ve been inclined to hide
But if all you ever wanted
Was someone to love you out loud
I can do it, I can do it now
I married this guy
And I didn’t lie but I barely told a soul
Pretty cold
And the next guy I had, well I didn’t share that
And no one even knows
But if all you ever wanted
Was someone to love you out loud
I can do it, I can do it now
For something has changed
And I don’t feel afraid
Or ashamed to say your name
Any time, any place
I guess all I ever wanted
Was someone that I could love out loud
And I can do it
I can do it now

I cannot be confined
Or contained
I will not be refined
Or restrained
For what I have retained
I will not give away
You can hedge your bets
And you doubt your debts
But they’re gonna be repaid
Someday
I cannot be maligned
Or mislaid
I will not be defined
Or displayed
For all that I remain
I will not give way
You can hedge your bets
And you doubt your debts
But they’re gonna be repaid
Someday

Time is a great healer
And I’d wager space can do that to
As I look out at all the water
I feel damage beginning to undo
I lost a thought, a thought of time
When I’d be unharmed and unbound
As I look out at all this water
I feel that time slowly coming around
Time is great healer
And I’d wager space can do that to
As I look out at all this water
I feel the damage beginning to undo

The trees don’t know it isn’t spring
And no one knows you love me like you do
The birds went off their winter wing
They’ll never leave a sky when it’s so blue

I’ve been holding my joy in a hand behind my back
And I’m not sorry for the freeze or frost this winter lacked
The changing of the clocks, the gaining of the time
The breaking of the box, the drawing of the line


The swallows only sing the summer long
And leaves will turn to ochre in the fall
They let themselves be drawn toward the ground
For there’s nothing sad in changing after all

I’ve been holding my hope in a hand behind my back
And I’m not sorry for going out the door and never coming back
The changing of the locks, the gaining of the time
The breaking of the box, the drawing of the line

I worry at the walls
The ones that I have built
And how it haunts the hallways
And makes the flowers wilt

To love you from afar
To want for you to know
To try to make you love me
And then to let you go

To always leave the shadows long
Till the daylight’s almost gone
To be with you
And not with you, all along

We worry at the words
The ones we haven’t said
Because you felt so strongly
You chose some weaker ones instead

I worry at the time
And how it has to go
I worry that I loved you, but I never let you know
To always seek the saddest song
Cos I can sing no other one
To be with you
And not with you, all along

Seconds turn to minutes all the time
And nothing I say will make you change your mind
Your heart is a fire but there’s nothing in it
And nothing I say will make you change your mind

I can try
Or I can learn
I can plead, I can burn

But seconds turn to minutes all the time
And nothing I say has made you change your mind
So wearing your heart on your sleeve begins to thin it
And nothing I say has made you change your mind

I could try
Or I can learn
I could plead, I could burn

But seconds turn to minutes all the time
And nothing I say will make you change your mind.

Dark Cloud, threatening to rain, to drain the sky to grey
If I dare to be happier

Dark Cloud, why you tie yourself to me
In your gloomy little need
If I never made you happier?

Don’t the sunshine brighter
When I’m smiling at you?
Don’t you feel less lonely
Out in my blue sky?

Dark Cloud, now you’re out at sea
So far away from me
And has it made you happier

Cos oh the sun shines brighter
When I save it all for me
And oh I feel less lonely
Out of your shadowy

Dark Cloud, threatening to rain, to drain the sky to grey
Somewhere else, I’m happier

[ Blue sky smiling at me, nothing but blue sky, do I see
Blue days, all of them gone, nothing but blue sky, from now on]
-from ‘Blue Skies by Irving Berlin

Blue sky, somewhere else I’m happier

Do I ever wonder? You don't know.
You'll never follow, and I'll never show.
D'you see the water and watch it flow
And float an empty shell,
And you think that I'm hiding from the island.
You've a fault in your senses. Can you feel it now?
Time? What is that? I've no time to care.
I've lived for a long while nearly everywhere.
You will be taken, everyone, you ladies and you gentlemen.
Fall and listen with your ears upon the paving stone.
Is that what you hear? The coming of the sea?
Sea flows under your doors in London town.
And all your defences are all broken down.
You laugh at me on funny days, but mine's the slight of hand.
Don't you know I am a joker, a deceiver?
And I'm waiting for the land.
Words and music by Sandy Denny

You need something to cling to
We all need something to cling to
We're at sea

Don't just leave us be

I wake, i rise, i wonder
We're at sea
And what will come of me

you wake, you rise, you wonder
We're at sea
What will come of me

You wake, you rise, you wonder
We’re at sea

Your smile use it wisely
Your smile use it widely
Use it wildly

A cold wind blows through a house without a door
And it calls across the water, a withering roar
This love is like an apple without any core
And I’m not fixing a stranger anymore

There’s a beginning of no end to the ringing of my hands
And I long for open ears, some kind of understanding
This voice it isn’t singing, why it doesn’t even cry
And I’m not joining a stranger in a lie

You hope your heart a palace wherein your love will be
But he didn’t have the courage and he didn’t keep the key
You may think you’ve found a cherry that doesn’t have a stone
But he skimmed it across the water and just left the flesh alone

Sorry, is the key to a door
That you will come through
And hurt me some more

All my good deeds are dust on your desk
Shiny stone medals
To hang in your chest

So maybe if I meant a thing at all
You’d let me know
But you didn’t know me
I’m just a host

A host for your dreams
All that you hate
All that you wish for
All that you ain’t


Sorry, is the key to a door
That you would come through
And hurt me some more.

You’ve got your problems
But I’m the one that needs to change
You’re so angry
But I’m the one that’s acting strangely
You don’t speak clearly
But I’m not hearing you right
And I’m the only person fighting in this fight

It would all be fine, if I didn’t mind
Everything would be alright, if I didn’t mind, if I just didn’t mind

You say you’ve got feelings
But you don’t want to talk
You’ll only concede
When you know I’m gonna walk
I’ve never known frustration like this in my life
Cos only you use silence like others use a knife

It would all be fine, if I didn’t mind
Everything would be alright, if I didn’t mind, if I just didn’t mind

You won’t give me words that I could use to feel ok
You’d rather swallow them all than give any away
I know you’re going to starve me until I waste away
You’ve always pushed me further to try to make me stay

It would all be fine, if I didn’t mind
Everything would be alright, if I didn’t mind, if I just didn’t mind

I’m leaving London but I might be back
I’ve given him my best years and he’ll never give them back
I don’t know where I’m going
And I don’t know where I’m from
I took it day by day
And the days went on and on

I sat and waited to grow up
Thinking this city would make me wiser
And now I know I’ve had enough
All I want is to be brighter

What was I waiting for and what then did I find?
I found the very edges of, and nearly lost, my mind
If you need my forwarding address
It’s sent your way
If I haven’t sent it on
You won’t need it anyway

I’ve been stringing lines of simplicity
I’ve been simply saying things as I see them
Slender, sad and sentimental

I want poise, poetry and pride
A deep complexity in which to hide
I’ve been living it all on the outside
Slender, sad and sentimental

I’ve been wearing my woes to widely
I’ve had pursed lips pinned and peaky
I’m grinning through gritted teeth
I’ve been gurning at you, yearning to yield

Poise, poetry and pride
A deep complexity in which to hide
I’ve been living it all on the outside
Slender, sad and sentimental

I dream of deep dark depths
The ocean blue and vast
But I’m just bobbing on the surface
A-waving from the mast

I want poise, poetry and pride
A deep complexity in which to hide
I’ve been living it all on the outside
Slender, sad and sentimental

I could decide
To wish ten years away
Disappear into regret
And let it eat me away

Close my eyes and ears
Until I can forget
A decade of these tears

So leave me alone with my thoughts
For just another minute
I’m trying to drown out the noise
And let it alone

The loneliness of Onliness
Is only how you feel about it
And I’m ok
And I’ll live to see another day
And someday I won’t even think about it
Anymore, anymore

I remember well
All the days
And nothing can wash them away
They're safe in the past to stay
And maybe you could stop you here
There's enough of my love or all

You can't own brother
No you can't
There's no friend or lover who can
And the more you covet, the less you have

Take your chains off me
You don't love me
Empty hands they hold too tightly

I'm running out
Of patience now
If fixing were possible
I'd fixed it somehow

It's not for want of trying
It's not
For all my crying

Singing is just words to a tune
It’s trying to convey something, desperately
To communicate
With the added use of futile music
I’m pretty sure you never understood a word I said
Still I’m pinning all my sentences on melodies instead
This one (has) struggles with structure
It wanders in its rhyme and its reason
They never got me nowhere in my season and time
Love me like you ought to
Or leave me if you don’t
Cos I’m tired of talking
And I’m running out of notes
Blue sky in the morning
And birds fly along the shoreline
Beautiful pictures captured in a rhyme
So, love me like you ought to
Or leave me on the line
Where I’ll sing beautiful pictures
Of my season and time

Cruel and random love
Life is cruel
Second guesses us we are fools
And any time we try to find the answers
They’ve eluded us

Ever the hope, the rope that hangs us
Never to know what becomes us
And any time we thought we’d find the answers
They just deluded us

Make the most of your moments
Content in your clouds and your dark skies
Learning to sail in all weather
On sea and sand, river and land

Cruel and random love
Life is cruel
Set to puzzle us with no rules
And any time we truly find the answers
They’ll have concluded us

Seconds turn to minutes all the time
And nothing I say will make you change your mind
Your heart is a fire but there’s nothing in it
And nothing I say will make you change your mind

I can try
Or I can learn
I could plead, I could burn

But seconds turn to minutes all the time
And nothing I say has made you change your mind
So wearing your heart on your sleeve begins to thin it
And nothing I say has made you change your mind

I could try
Or I can learn
I could plead, I could burn

But seconds turn to minutes all the time
And nothing I say will make you change your mind.

I worry at the walls
The ones that I have built
And how it haunts the hallways
And makes the flowers wilt

To love you from afar
To want for you to know
To try to make you love me
And then to let you go

To always leave the shadows long
Till the daylight’s almost gone
To be with you
And not with you, all along

We worry at the words
The ones we haven’t said
Because you felt so strongly
You chose some weaker ones instead

I worry at the time
And how it has to go
I worry that I loved you
but I never let you know

To always seek the saddest song
Cos I can sing no other one
To be with you
And not with you, all along

I remember well
All the days
And nothing can take them away
They're safe in the past to stay
So maybe you could stop demanding
You had it all, all along

You can't own me brother
No you can't
There's no friend or lover who can
And the more covet, the less you have

Take your chains off me
You don't love me
Empty hands they hold too tightly
An empty heart knows nothing of love
Your empty hands
Have offered me nothing
Enough

Here I am, here I am
How do you do
(My dad:) “are you doing Twinkle twinkle little star then”
“oh yes” (my grandmother)
Twinkle Twinkle little star “go on josie” (my sister)
How I wonder what you are
Up above the world so high
Like a diamond in the sky
Twinkle twinkle little star (my grandma)“that’s nice, that’s well done”
(my sister) “that’s great Josie”

I’ve tried and I’ve toiled
Now I just want to sing to you
I’ve lied and I’ve failed
And I’ve been strung along
Now I just want to sing you a song
It won’t clever but it won’t be long

Everybody sings now nobody listens
And I’m just the same a perpetrator of the crime
What do we think that we are solving
No protest song has ever changed my mind
We’re on a hiding surely to nothing
Down the drain to the end of the line

Moonlight, lighting my darkest hours
Learning how deep these rivers are
Midnight brings on a fever
Knowing my love will suffer in art
But song a chain of stars around my heart

the weight of the world is breaking in
all of the hard, soft, light, dark
wait and hoping

How dare you have that light they said
How dare it be so bright
You think yourself too good for the dark
Please don’t take it for it grew from just spark
For years now it’s burned here in my heart

The lights in the dark are shining like stars
And know where I’ll be
There’s a fear, there’s a start, there’s a weight in my heart
And I know what I need
There’s a song with my name upon, easy
When I wake, in my sleep, in my hands, on my feet
Its every aching part
There’s a tune on my tongue all the day till it’s done
Its every end and start
There’s a song with my name upon

They’re nothing more than words
Strung upon a tune
That I’ve given meaning, by singing them to you
It’s nothing but a show
My story to tell
That I’ve given meaning to by singing it so well
(Nothing is….) no one is saved
And nothing is solved
It’s just a story familiar and old

Caught on the wing and tide
There courses that leave no trace on time
To linger under dust in corners
Then leave a space to know just where you were
To leave your trace in time

I never…
I never learned French
Like I said I would
Never returned your call
That book you gave me is still on the shelf
I forgot about others and remembered myself
I worried my parents when I didn’t come home
To scared and too lazy to pick up the phone
And I’ve sung the tune and forgotten the words
And I let love languish and others be hurt

Work’s a world away I only do playing now
My heart I give away, it doesn’t belong to me now
Call me old fashioned I never knew so well
The causes, the pressures they’re all consuming now

What am I supposed to do with my mind
If I can keep it, sustain
If I can turn the will to the way
If I could strain it, refrain
If I can take a pen to the pain
And explain it again
If I can bring the form to the frame
What else can I do with my mind
If I can bring the moonlight
Down upon the water
If I can bring moon
Down on to the paper
Then what else can I do with my mind

All twisted up in your shell
Never enough, never so well
Leave me alone, to dwell
All twisted up in your shell
Never enough never too well
Leave me alone to dwell

All twisted up in your shell
Regressing back to your cells
We are all but progeny
Seedlings all
Once yet to be
Developing dirt year by year
All hands in the earth
Trying to root ourselves here
The sun knows no better by now
It all seems much littler somehow
Stuck to the sky
Living in hope
Questioning why
Thinking we know
We are all a litany
Of Seedlings all in-infini

Boney is the look and feeble is the gait
Those wide eyes put you in your place
Your lost in the endless space
From a mouth, repulsed and red
No word of consequence is said
But you’re lost in the longing inside your own head
A vessel to carry your dreams
A carcass of visible seams
But somewhere to house all your insecurities

How will it go on
The turn of the moon’s gone
A further nine times along
And I’m still not moving on
Light limps along
From the dusk into the dawn
Then lights another long day beyond
That I won’t be moving on
We’re caught in the doorway
Not sure of the game we’re playing
And the stakes higher and higher raising
Till something’s gonna give it away

This year I will straighten my back
I will lay down my weapons in good faith
Live unready for attack
This year I will shut my mouth
I won’t waste my words
I will listen
And give up some ground

You can carry on shouting
Till the darkness eats the light
Endlessly narrating on
This fistless little fight
But we’re all done talking
Till there’s footfall on the ground
There’s nothing left to say
We’re only going down
As the tide will roll away

Like a ship in the night
She will sail away
But I am the shoreline
Always to stay, gradually worn away
She’s an island out on her own
It’s her sirens guiding you on
But I was your port in the storm
The white cliffs of dover no longer you home
We are the mainland, trapped alone
Watching and waiting unchanged
Undeterred until your return

It was something familiar like the sound of the sea
I forgot I remembered, like some lost part of me
It was only a flicker it was barely a trace
Only there for a second and then gone from your face

I wouldn’t say I was lonely but I know we’re alone
And my mind clings to memory like flesh to the bone
Reflections at sundown can make me so sad
For there’s no way of keeping the day we’ve just had

With all the words I have, I’ve run out already
A sentence in itself to strike on it squarely
It’s just your tender heart pumping the blood around body
It’s just your tender heart pumping my blood
….Is that enough

The lake was frozen over and we’d given up on spring
Our hearts familiar feeling but what goodness could it bring
The melody lilts slowly you know you will sing
Syrup so sweet that you can’t help but drink
A cause to remain, a love of pleasure and of pain
A love longing in vain
A break in the clouds, a parting of ways
Her love a leitmotif
His a simple refrain

Throwing and catching love
We’ll never know the reasons why all of these things are done
I waste my time I know there is line
A life to leave behind but I can’t say it
Lover set it free
You never made the most of me
My heart only dies with thoughts of greener grass on the other side
Throwing and catching love
We’ll never know the reasons why all of these are done

Overnight,
Early morning
London time
I was waking
I remember
All the time
A sleepy sight
In the glimmer
of first/that light
I was wavering
I remember
All that night

Darkling bird, one for sorrow
How you borrow love from the rest
Darkling bird, for tomorrow
How you squander love in your nest
And Aye the magpie
Coveting the twinkling things
That others leave behind
And Aye the magpie
Borrowing and burying
Of feral feathered kind

Let there be no more sad refrains you say
Not another line for thorny is the vine
You’ve had my heart entwined
Endless briny seas the tears you cry for me
But how sweet is the sorrow of my love
My tale may turn the tide
And you just might decide not to leave

I will stop writing you songs
Take my love away
I’m not made of stone darling
I can feel alone, I recognize your pain
I will stop giving a damn
Make my little stand
I’m no fucking fool darling
You don’t know who I am
Doubt you ever can

I want to start slowly taking my time over
I want to start slowly taking my time over
I don’t want no fanfare you can leave it there
For another affair

For a long time now I’ve wanted to say
Something to lighten your load brighten your day
But there aren’t the words for the colours I see
The patterns they change, won’t stay the same
And somehow my view is always imbued
With melancholia hues, dusty blues
At dusk and at dawn
Moments to wonder but somehow to mourn
These moments they pass to never return
And turn to nostalgia as our memory learns
For each pound of joy there’s an ounce of regret
If the sun rises you know it must set
So I’m noting it down to tuck it away
Saving some sunshine for my rainy day
And I’m trying to find that silverline
That runs through the clouds that collect in my skies

I love is a pendulum swing
We are two bells with alternate rings
In the sequence of high and low
You’ll be the other side of wherever I go
Forever repeating the only tune you know
The other side of whatever I know
Thought of resolving hanging in the air
A pendulum swinging from here to there
Our love is like bells ring, sweet and sad
The pull of the longing is all we have

I thought a mother’s hands would grow on my arms somehow
I thought I’d know, thought I’d have days and days to decide
But maybe I don’t, maybe I won’t
How easy it was to linger cling
To the apron string
It’s been so long might know none of my own
Rock a bye baby on the tree top
When the wind blow
The cradle will rock
When the bow break
The cradle will fall
Down come baby cradle and all

You bring me stones tiny and jagged
Though all they’re all your own
End up in my pockets
We’re supposed to carry them
Without a word
No matter how heavy that burden
You bring me stones

This heavy heart is lighter than the weight of your expectation
I can be sad today at losing of the leaves that blow away
The birds that never sing when a song is sung at the beginning of the day
If I just wait the light turn to dark after the grey skies of afternoons
That drift away like a sadness that pains

Where’s the measure? where’s the metal?
Pinned to my heart worn your sleeve
You’ve pinned all your hopes on me
You’ve pinned all your hopes on me

What do you want from me?
To be cast in stone
Whatever you get from me
Does it make you strong?

And I’m a fool all alone
But you didn’t break me
I’ve never been strong

What you want from me?
To be set in song
Made my melody to be sung upon

And I’m a fool to have played along
But you didn’t break me
I’ve never been strong

Your hand is tied to my hand
And your dreams appear in my dreams
You fall in the ocean and I’ll be dragged underneath
Your is tied to my hand
And your dreams appear in my dreams
I fall in the ocean and you’re coming with me

When did we did we cease to be what we are
And never near seemed quite so far away
Now I miss the moments and you rue the day

You’re too open the light comes in
When youre too open all teeth and chin
And there’s no one following
Oh to be an enigma like you
Oh not to be seen right through
I would give anything
To not to be you

Cruel and random love
Life is cruel
Second guesses us little fools
And any time try to find the answers
They’ve eluded us
Cruel and random love
We are cruel
It suppresses us
Just we do
And any time we thought we’d find the answers
It just deluded us

All is myth I feel with my hands
I don’t trust my eyes, they lie
And so do my ears
All is myth I feel I pretend
I don’t know the rules to this life
So I pretend I’m pretending
I try when others aren’t trying
And I sleep when they’re all awake
I look for lines in the earth
And I feel until my heart aches
All is myth I don’t understand
I’m still on my knees in the dark
I feel with my hands
All is myth I just like to sing
I don’t know if there is an end
In finding an ending

Live on the turn of the tide
Ever to burrow but never to hide
Always the tears in the edge of my eyes
Delivering truth of the live and let lie
Rivers that never run dry
Red from this bleeding heart of mine
Suffer the scratching thorn in my side
Ever the itching of precious pride
Lament of the lonely, the lost all along
Only me only can carry them on
This heart is so heavy I wish I was strong
Only me only the only one
The tide in the morning is nearly gone
It’s lilting and leaving till back it comes
The birds are all winging the dawn is done
It’s only me singing the only one

The space is all I have, the calm
A face is all I am no arms
Reflecting in water like glass, the past
Forever turning

Love me silver love me blue
All my evenings watching you
vthe time of day
How small the hours I’m waiting through

Bright and tender, sad and true
All the light I offer you
Never to see your eyes
But oh how I turn the tide on cue

Open my mouth to speak
Nothing comes out
I don’t want you to think that I don’t want you
We’re all afraid of the dark
We all believe ours is the weakest heart
I don’t want you to think that I don’t want you
But what I want to say is written on the stars
So far away

Congratulations I’ve had more than I can take
You wouldn’t know the line
Until it was behind you
You wouldn’t take the time
You couldn’t learn the lesson
You couldn’t find the way
Though it was written on my face
And all the times I’d say
That this is just the way it is
You hurt me so many times
And you heard me so quiet
And now it is too late
For me to contemplate it
To have a change heart
To go where we started

It’s not Chicago’s fault that no one came to see my play
It’s not the rain that ruined the parade
The cookie’s gonna crumble and money’s gonna burn
Make your peace with failure an early lesson that you learn
You’re gonna look foolish as the sun is the sky
Some of it is painful and youre gonna have to try
But you wouldn’t trade for all that glitters gold
You only went and made it despite what you were told
And I just chalked it up to just another day
It’s not Chicago’s fault that no one came to see my play
And that’s only way

Caught in the lie where’s the money, where’s the time ?
And when do you decide that you’ve been wasting your life ?

Trying to make, trying to prove
That we can shape things, things of no use
All out of knots, all out of loose ends
Out of our heartache, out of our misadventure
I’ve got string stronger than rope
Its threaded with silver, it’s threaded with hope
It’s made out of love I wasted on some
It’s stitched to the skyline under the sun

There’s nothing to be gained or lost
But only the passing of time
The paradise the pain the loss
The devil the darkness defines
What do you call that piece that binds you heart
And where is the hope in earth and ash and dust

It’s feeble and flimsy and hangs by a thread
Can see it all ending in something I said
And losing my mind I would be losing my head
I’m lost in the business of composing
Get lost in the business of comping myself

I could borrow a line or waste the rest of my time
Waiting for a sign
I’ve got nothing to give
I know more than I did when I stumbled in

Cruel and random love
Life is cruel
Second guesses us we are fools
And any time we try to find the answers
They’ve eluded us

Ever the hope, the rope that hangs us
Never to know what becomes us
And any time we thought we’d find the answers
They just deluded us

Make the most of your moments
Content in your clouds and your dark skies
Learning to sail in all weather
On sea and sand, river and land

Cruel and random love
Life is cruel
Set to puzzle us with no rules
And any time we truly find the answers
They’ll have concluded us

Seconds turn to minutes all the time
And nothing I say will make you change your mind
Your heart is a fire but there’s nothing in it
And nothing I say will make you change your mind

I can try
Or I can learn
I can plead, I can burn

But seconds turn to minutes all the time
And nothing I say has made you change your mind
So wearing your heart on your sleeve begins to thin it
And nothing I say has made you change your mind

I could try
Or I can learn
I could plead, I could burn

But seconds turn to minutes all the time
And nothing I say will make you change your mind.

The trees don’t know it isn’t spring
And no one knows you love me like you do
The birds went off their winter wing
They’ll never leave a sky when it’s so blue

I’ve been holding my joy in a hand behind my back
And I’m not sorry for the freeze or frost this winter lacked
The changing of the clocks, the gaining of the time
The breaking of the box, the drawing of the line


The swallows only sing the summer long
And leaves will turn to ochre in the fall
They let themselves be drawn toward the ground
For there’s nothing sad in changing after all

I’ve been holding my hope in a hand behind my back
And I’m not sorry for going out the door and never coming back
The changing of the locks, the gaining of the time
The breaking of the box, the drawing of the line

I’m leaving London but I might be back
I’ve given him my best years and he’ll never give them back
I don’t know where I’m going
And I don’t know where I’m from
I took it day by day
And the days went on and on

I sat and waited to grow up
Thinking this city would make me wiser
And now I know I’ve had enough
All I want is to be brighter

What was I waiting for and what then did I find?
I found the very edges of, and nearly lost, my mind
If you need my forwarding address
It’s sent your way
If I haven’t sent it on
You won’t need it anyway

A cold wind blows through a house without a door
And it calls across the water, a withering roar
This love is like an apple without any core
And I’m not fixing a stranger anymore

There’s a beginning of no end to the ringing of my hands
And I long for open ears, some kind of understanding
This voice it isn’t singing, why it doesn’t even cry
And I’m not joining a stranger in a lie

You hope your heart a palace wherein your love will be
But he didn’t have the courage and he didn’t keep the key
You may think you’ve found a cherry that doesn’t have a stone
But he skimmed it across the water and just left the flesh alone

You’ve got your problems
But I’m the one that needs to change
You’re so angry
But I’m the one that’s acting strangely
You don’t speak clearly
But I’m not hearing you right
And I’m the only person fighting in this fight

It would all be fine, if I didn’t mind
Everything would be alright, if I didn’t mind, if I just didn’t mind

You say you’ve got feelings
But you don’t want to talk
You’ll only concede
When you know I’m gonna walk
I’ve never known frustration like this in my life
Cos only you use silence like others use a knife

It would all be fine, if I didn’t mind
Everything would be alright, if I didn’t mind, if I just didn’t mind

You won’t give me words that I could use to feel ok
You’d rather swallow them all than give any away
I know you’re going to starve me until I waste away
You’ve always pushed me further to try to make me stay

It would all be fine, if I didn’t mind
Everything would be alright, if I didn’t mind, if I just didn’t mind

Sorry, is the key to a door
That you will come through
And hurt me some more

All my good deeds are dust on your desk
Shiny stone medals
To hang in your chest

So maybe if I meant a thing at all
You’d let me know
But you didn’t know me
I’m just a host

A host for your dreams
All that you hate
All that you wish for
All that you ain’t

Sorry, is the key to a door
That you would come through
And hurt me some more.

I’ve been stringing lines of simplicity
I’ve been simply saying things as I see them
Slender, sad and sentimental

I want poise, poetry and pride
A deep complexity in which to hide
I’ve been living it all on the outside
Slender, sad and sentimental

I’ve been wearing my woes to widely
I’ve had pursed lips pinned and peaky
I’m grinning through gritted teeth
I’ve been gurning at you, yearning to yield

Poise, poetry and pride
A deep complexity in which to hide
I’ve been living it all on the outside
Slender, sad and sentimental

I dream of deep dark depths
The ocean blue and vast
But I’m just bobbing on the surface
A-waving from the mast

I want poise, poetry and pride
A deep complexity in which to hide
I’ve been living it all on the outside
Slender, sad and sentimental

Singing is just talking to a tune
It’s trying to convey something, desperately
To communicate
With the added use of futile music
I’m pretty sure you never understood a word I said
Still I’m pinning all my sentences on melodies instead
This one struggles with structure
It wanders in its rhyme and its reason
They never got me nowhere in my season and time
Love me like you ought to
Or leave me if you don’t
Cos I’m tired of talking
And I’m running out of notes
Blue sky in the morning
And birds fly along the shoreline
Beautiful pictures captured in a rhyme
So, love me like you ought to
Or leave me on the line
Where I’ll sing beautiful pictures
Of my season and time

I worry at the walls
The ones that I have built
And how it haunts the hallways
And makes the flowers wilt

To love you from afar
To want for you to know
To try to make you love me
And then to let you go

To always leave the shadows long
Till the daylight’s almost gone
To be with you
And not with you, all along

We worry at the words
The ones we haven’t said
Because you felt so strongly
You chose some weaker ones instead

I worry at the time
And how it has to go
I worry that I loved you, but I never let you know

To always seek the saddest song
Cos I can sing no other one
To be with you
And not with you, all along

Fair weather friends
Never there
When it rains

When skies are blue
They’re all over you
In your darkest hour
Where do they go?

All in the end you’ll know
Off they go
They’re fair weather friends

Dark Cloud, threatening to rain, to drain the sky to grey
If I dare to be happier

Dark Cloud, why you tie yourself to me
In your gloomy little need
If I never made you happier?

Don’t the sunshine brighter
When I’m smiling at you?
Don’t you feel less lonely
Out in my blue sky?

Dark Cloud, now you’re out at sea
So far away from me
And has it made you happier

Cos oh the sun shines brighter
When I save it all for me
And oh I feel less lonely
Out of your shadowy

Dark Cloud, threatening to rain, to drain the sky to grey
Somewhere else, I’m happier

[Blue sky smiling at me, nothing but blue sky, do I see
Blue days, all of them gone, nothing but blue sky, from now on]
-from ‘Blue Skies by Irving Berlin

Blue sky, somewhere else I’m happier

I could decide
To wish ten years away
Disappear into regret
And let it eat me away

Close my eyes and ears
Until I can forget
A decade of these tears

So leave me alone with my thoughts
For just another minute
I’m trying to drown out the noise
And let it alone

The loneliness of Onliness
Is only how you feel about it
And I’m ok
And I’ll live to see another day
And someday I won’t even think about it
Anymore, anymore

Anymore

That song plays
And my heart actually aches
I need a guarantee
Though I detailed all the things I didn’t need
And it turns out
I’m weaker than I would care to seem

Come to me, this is enough
Before I turn my head and it disappears to dust
What have you done to me?
What will this do?
Now I cannot think of anything but you

That song plays
And my heart actually aches
I need a guarantee
And it turns out there’s a weaker man in me
And his need is more than I would have believed

Come to me, this is enough
Though I cannot give you anything but love
What have you done to me?
What can I do?
To show you I’m the only one for you

Come to me, this is enough
Though I cannot give you anything but love
What have you done to me?
How can I be?
The only man that you will ever need?

Read yourself a story that you wrote
Tell yourself whatever lies you like
I can never lie
The truth is sharp it hurts my eyes

Walk around a hole that’s in the floor
Pretend like you don’t see it anymore
I can never lie
The truth’s so bright it hurts my eyes

There’s a sound
Drowning out all the other sounds
How do live with that din in your ears?

If you can only learn to let it lie
Then all the falling stays up in the sky
I can never lie
The truth runs all through my inside

Just pretend you didn’t hear
And nothing good will ever disappear
I can never lie, dear
The truth is like a needle in my ear

There’s a sound
Drowning out all the other sounds
How do you live with that din in your ears?

Singing is just talking to a tune
It’s trying to convey something, desperately
To communicate
With the added use of futile music

I’m pretty sure you never understood a word I said
Still I’m pinning all my sentences on melodies instead

This one struggles with structure
It wanders in its rhyme and it’s reason
They never got me nowhere in my season and time

Love me like you ought to
Or leave me if you don’t
Cos I’m tired of talking
And I’m running out of notes

Blue sky in the morning
And birds fly along the shoreline
Beautiful pictures captured in a rhyme

So love me like you ought to
Or leave me on the line
Where I’ll sing beautiful pictures
Of my season and time

There’s a certain kind of smile
Buried way down in the back of my mind
There’s a wishing well where all lost dreams do dwell
I’ve the kind of heart that’s longing for longing
For love

There’s an aching anew
There’s weight in the beauty escaping out of view

Lines and letters, promising to never be untrue
Like a message in a bottle that will never ever get to you

Instead, unread it sails off into the blue

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Written by - Josienne Clarke

They say these are the walls
They say and I believe
But my heart has long been longing
For the green, far beyond, the green

I heard a lark,
And I heard a nightingale
I can hear the tide tap upon the seashore

But these walls are made of worry
And each brick was built with their love
One by one



I’ve heard the wolves in the wood
But I’m only afraid of the dark
For I can’t unknow what I know now
Or deny it to my longing heart

I heard a lark
I heard a nightingale
And I can hear the tide crash upon the seashore

So I willed these walls to weaken
And all their worries came undone
One by one

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Music by Kit Downes
Lyrics by Josienne Clarke

Who will buy this wonderful morning
Such a sky you never did see
Who will tie it up in ribbon
And put it in a box for me

Where I can keep it at my leisure
Whenever things go wrong
And I keep it as a treasure
To last my whole life long

Who will buy this wonderful feeling
I’m so high I swear I could fly
Me oh my I don’t want to lose it
But what am I to do to keep the sky so blue
There must be someone who will buy

Where I can keep it at my leisure
Whenever things go wrong
And I keep it as a treasure
To last my whole life long

Who will buy this wonderful morning
Such a sky you never did see
Me oh my I don’t want to lose it
So what am I to do
To keep the sky so blue
There must be someone
Who will buy

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Written by Lionel Bart
From ‘Oliver’ based on the Charles Dickens’ ‘Oliver Twist’

Oh come do not delay my hearts dear treasure
Come where fond love is calling thee to pleasure
The moon is veiled no star in heaven is beaming
Though the sky is still dark and the world is dreaming

The flowing stream and zephyrs softly playing
Soothe the heart with sweet sighs with its pain allaying
Amid verdure fresh the smiling florets bending
To the raptures of love now all is tending

Come where ‘neath shadows the night in calm reposes
Come my dearest and I will wreath for the a crown roses
A crown of roses

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Suzanna’s Aria ‘Deh Vienni Non Tardar’
From ‘Le Nozze De Figaro’
Written by Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart
Arranged - Downes/Clarke

Just like you
There’s so much to undo
If I had the day anew
The things I wouldn’t do

The words we wouldn’t say
Come the dimming of the day
So much to push away

So much to deny
Please don’t cry

It’s one tear for sorrow but more for joy
A river long and winding that nothing can destroy
The twist and turn
The ebb and flow
A gentle force
From what you don’t
To what you know

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Written by Josienne Clarke

Footsteps on the cold ground
Lead straight to your door
And the birds in my tangled tree
Sing of love but call to war

Beautiful birds are not meant to be caged
You should have been true to your wings
You should have flown away

So left my tangled tree
That once bore strong branches and leaves of green
But how cruel and inevitable the passing of time can be

Its wood doesn't grow
It's bent and it's much too old
Somehow in it's twisted arms
I never felt alone

This tangled tree
Watched every inch of its majesty fade
With fall of every leaf

It always seemed to call me
The crooked stoop, the bend and swoop
Of its complicated beauty
They cut it up to burn it down
Bright lights rise out and over the fire

This morning I fell off
The pedestal you put me on
And I don't remember promising
To be the one
Just someone
But sadly someone is never enough

If you want stars
Enlightened dreams fulfilled with answers
That I cannot provide
If you don't want the truth
Then I'd never be right by your side

I could wish one thousand
To be in the light that caught your eye
And I could wish one thousand more
To be the one that you'll adore

But o'er my head you're searching far
Some more bright beguiling star
And fair young girls from wide and far
come see what bright young man you are

Please don't fall in love

Me too small, too lean, too low
Possess no charms to thrill you so
And though my heart with love does grow
It lacks the strength to tell you so

But o'er my head you're searching far
Some more bright beguiling star
And fair young girls, I know they are
Will steal your heart and drag you far

Please don't fall in love

In sleep I dream I catch your glance
One starry night, moonlight we dance
I hold my breath wait for my chance
To see one night through in your arms

But o'er my head you're searching far
Some more bright beguiling star
But their shine in time will pass
And woe true love forever lasts

Please don't fall in love

Some give an inch
But I need an mile
I'm not weak
The wolf is sly
Just get dazed by its eyes

Can't leave a trail
Cos breadcrumbs we tried
And you never fall the same way every time
You just lose, bruise and wise
Learn to lose, bruise and get wise

I cannot rest
No place to lay me head
And I can't help feeling alone
When nothing feels like home

Some give an inch
But I'll give a mile
I'm not weak
The wolf is sly
Just get dazed by its eyes